A few cents..

I sometimes wonder why people compromise on love. Isn't that the purest thing there is?

Everytime, I see situations of "what goes around, comes around", for folks who do. Compromise i.e. It's just plain silly, that an opportunity is given, for something exactly like that, to happen.

In the end, it leads to more heartbreaks, more disappointment, more self-doubt, more 'carefulness' - you just don't be yourself when you try to get back to it in a different manner - where you're just trying to cover up everything that is there of you. Trying not to make the same mistakes, trying not to let go.

When life bites you in the tail, you realise that there's more to it. You realise that you were wrong, that it's just your so-called moral grounds that held you down, when you could have explored every minute of beauty in your life.

Folks out there - let go of yourself, let go of all your inhibitions. Love is Freedom. Live it, express it, enjoy it. It'll last. Try a reboot, with this in mind.

-V

PS: Applicable for those who find themselves in such situations, as described.

Strange people.

I am surrounded by truckloads of them. Doesn't mean that I don't have the un-strange ones around, there are normal ones too FYI.

These are the kinds of people I know (The strange ones):

1) Incessantly arguing/fighting about something extremely pointless. Sometimes, even annoyingly trying to play "Father Figure" AKA "know it all" even when there's nothing "known" ... by the person in question of course.

2) Ego-centric. Cannot stand the fact that there are people who back away and don't give attention to them. BUT - what do they do? They bend just a little, just a teeny weeny bit - for about 20 seconds to communicate. And wow, there's even a rationale! "I communicated because it's normal for me not to communicate but it's not normal for you to communicate and since I haven't heard from you...." Blah. How hard is it to be normal. Sheesh.

3) Chameleons. The most dangerous of the ilk. Get into your own territory, your own people and turn everyone you know .. against YOU! Create factions, politics, fights. Stand and laugh. In the corner with a sly smirk. You aren't that intelligent you know. You've been sized up, and yet you don't know it. Tsk. I pity your existence.

About 1) ----> Maybe you haven't met anyone more smarter than you, and now that you might just have, it's taking a WHILE for you to get adjusted. So relax. Get used to it. Someone is smarter.

About 2) ----> Retarded. Less said, the better.

About 3) ----> You won't get to play your games for too long.

To my readers ----> Yes, another smashing blog. Bite me.

-V

Comeback!

Blogland! I am back.

Ok, to those who didn't get it, I AM BACK! YES BABY! Back because of the following:

1) By popular demand. (No, I ain't feeding my ego.)

2) By a HUGE desire to get back and unleash my creativity (aka a creative channel for all my vents!) all over this blogspace! ORGASMIC!

3) It also has to be noted - that this ISN'T my sole channel, it's just a 'creative' channel. The sole channel knows everything about me :)

It's been a solid 10 months! Wow! 10 months of no blogging? How are you doing out there my audience? Hope y'all are doing good! I also noticed that my counter has gone upto 990! Brilliant! Some sorta activity over 10 months! 10 shy of 1000! Good news! Good news!

Today, I am gonna be talking about a couple of things. I have understood for one that there has been a gamut of jealousy - with respect to everything that is "me". So much so, that being myself has become a problem! The same folks .. yes siree, the same folks who I thought would be there, supposedly, anyway!

Misunderstandings, complaints, silly behaviour, all rolled into one. It's not a fascinating thing to be swimming in. It's also come to a point, where my competence at something which I am REALLY GOOD at, and trust me, I have people who'll vouch for it - IS BEING QUESTIONED! Not happening, ah ah! I don't have to prove anything to anyone about this. But I am going to do it anyway. Just so that I can feel so damn evilly HAPPY about it - like a SLAP on the recipient's face!

I have this to say to all you folks (not many) out there who THINK you are in my inner circle, and if you're not seing me BE MYSELF over the past few days:

1) Give respect, take respect.

2) Take me for granted, I am done with you.

3) Be true to your character, don't be 20 different people at the same time. Tell me you're close to me? Prove it!

4) You understand me, yet you do the very same things others would do - to cause more irritation, anger and absolute confusion - in my mind about everything you stood for! Read - Yes, you might have CHANGED!

5) I am going to be myself - with people who really know me, who wouldn't misunderstand me at the drop of a hat! The others - I don't really give a rat's ass. Get used to who I am. Go back to the days when you USED TO KNOW ME. You won't hear from me until then! I am gonna be courteous, normal - strictly professional. Period.

6) Remember what has transpired before. Remember all the help? Remember all the "being there for you" stories? I don't even understand why I even need to be NICE to people who aren't NICE TO ME!

7) Just because you can't TAKE MY TRIP by being verbally eloquent, doesn't mean you get personal. Don't think that I don't FEEL it when you SAY it!

This goes to all you punks who can't just STAND me for whatever I stand for. I know, I absolutely rock, and there ain't a damn thing you or your momma can do about it. Turn GREEN aliens!

Today, you ignorant morons - will know my REAL deal. Today, is the day when it reloads. Today is the day, that I am OFFICIALLY, BLOODY WELL BACK!

-V

Of what use is all this...

I don't understand the stuff happening right now.

I don't know why things have been hidden from me for such a long time, I would eventually come to know anyway.

To think that "this" would actually affect ANYTHING would be stupid. 

So what if something bad has happened? I am not dumb to let something like this come in between anything.

Why lie to me about everything? Why? 

What have I done to listen to these lies? Haven't I been truthful about every single thing? The least I deserved was the truth. The least. 

Tell me the truth. Don't be afraid. Nothing's gonna go wrong. Just tell me the damn truth.

From your mouth.

-V

I ask you..

What do you want me to do to prove myself?
Isn't being there whenever there's a need unconditionally, enough?
Isn't listening to every single thing and making one smile at the end which gives peace, enough?
Isn't saying it blatantly and obviously repeatedly enough?
Isn't blogging enough?
Isn't being concerned enough?
Isn't having sleepless nights enough?
Isn't being possessive enough?
Isn't asking for trust and belief enough?
Think of everything that has happened.. isn't that enough?

This has to be it..

No more 'in-between' talk.

"
There's a time and place for everything
for everyone,
we can push with all our might,
but nothing's gonna come.

Oh no, nothing's gonna change.
And if I ask you not to try, oh could you let it be?

I wanna hold you and say, we can't throw this all away,
tell me you won't go, you won't go, do you have to hear me say:

"I can't stop loving you,
And no matter what I say or do,
You know my heart is true,
I can't stop loving you"

You can change your friends, your place of life,
you can change your mind.
We can change the things we say and do anytime
But I think you'll find,
when you look inside your heart,
Baby, I'll be there..
Hold on, I'm holding on..
Just come on, come on, come on,
I just wanna hear you say:

"I can't stop loving you,
And no matter what you say or do,
You know my heart is true,
I can't stop loving you"

-V

Profound mental retardation..

What do you do when the one thing which can get you through the night isn't around?

You blog! :P

It's obvious to folks that there are certain things which I will take very easily, and there are certain things which are bound to multiply on my brain cells, and lead me into deeper spirals of damaging them.

Want my 2 cents of advice? Stay away from the stuff which makes my brain go "kaput". Kaput = boom, blast, basically a "brain overload".

Because if my brain does go "Kaput", it means the following:

1) I am very, very provoked.
2) I am at the heights of impatience.
3) I find myself losing faith, losing trust, losing belief.
4) I go into spirals thinking why everything is the way it is.

And then there's a ray of light again.. and everything disappears. Everything becomes nice.

Up and down, up and down, a nice sinusoidal wave. Nice and shapely.

-V